All I Want For Christmas Is...

...is something I can't put on my wishlist, because I'm afraid someone will find out. Everybody wants something. Ask anyone; gay, straight, male, female, black, white, rich, poor, priest, pariah, famous, or relatively alone...and they'll name at least one thing they want. I really, really, really want something, and I can't say what the hell it is. Fuck this shit. Hang on, Ness